sparrow and his mama | in the queen anne's lace

motherhood

Sep 10

I've wanted a little girl ever since I could remember. In high school I would save little outfits and dresses I found at thrift stores in my hope chest, dreaming of one day have a daughter to dress in them. For the longest time I would see the sweeping fields of feminine queen anne's lace during the summers and dream of one day taking yearly pictures with a little girl in them.

After 2 boys and 4 miscarriages I had completely given up hope of having a little girl. So much so that the long treasured clothing had been doled out to friends and family for their daughters. And then my rainbow girl came, a huge gift of love from God. She was the beginning of my healing and my seeing God as a loving father who doesn't want to teach me a lesson but who wants to bless my heart with my Lucy Miller girl.

Last year I had my sister snap a few pictures of us in the queen's anne lace, but the getting up and down in the summer heat to change settings and see what she had captured completely ruined the experience I wanted to have. So this year, Lucy Miller's second summer, I asked my beautiful, talented friend Amanda to photograph us. Amanda is not only a gifted artist she is a mother that knows the feeling of holding a long awaited gift. Her son Sparrow was born after Amanda suffered 3 miscarriages.

So one evening between all the stuff of life (while my boys ate take out in the car and watched a movie on the way to a birthday party) we photographed our grateful love with our babies and the results are magic.

I will forever treasure the images she captured and the feeling of being there in my dream field with my dream girl.